The Sun that destroys me

I do not want to destroy myself
By an affection for a stranger
How many times must my fragile heart shatter?
Before it realises that only darkness will embrace it
I don't want to have hope again, if
I step forward it disappears
Like a guiding light that runs low on fuel
I wish not to waste my feelings on a fleeting moment
I have had love for others
That they shine like stars in my night sky
Yet I have yet to meet the Sun
Who still shines eternally on the other side
And though she is a stranger, time will undo so
But time is an element I do not have
Though I wish to cherish each fading second
I cling on to the night, never to see the Sun
My wish is to know her, hold her inside out
So I hold not her but myself
Knowing I am inside her heart
But the seed in her heart won't grow
If it is forever in the dark
So I have to let her go
Never to know the Sun