All Apollogies

How do you continue? How do you go on through your life?
So many things in our lives bring memories of regret, so many times
when we wished we could go back, change the past, influence the future,
but it's still always out of reach.
When I was younger, I used to harbor thoughts of revenge and
retalliation for all the wrongs which I percieved other people had
commited against me, never holding a thought for how many people might
have the same thoughts about me, and some of my actions.
As you get older you realise that revenge is futile, it doesn't make
anything better, it doesn't help you, or excise the demons that are the
real reason for considering it in the first place.
What I've come to realise with the passing of each year, is that you
shouldn't try and make other people attone for the actions you think
they should, you need to concentrate on ammending your own.
Which brings me back to the beginning, you can't change the past, but
you can do the next best thing, you can influence the future, so from
this point on, I make this effort, to carry out the actions which I
wished other people would when dealing with me, to try and ensure that
I can make the life around me better for the people in it.
It won't change the past, and it won't rid me of my bad memories, but
it will give me more good memories for the future.