Everything i hate

There are so many things in this world that can change you, some
simple, and some so drastic you feel like the moon crashed to earth
right into your back yard. I spend so long trying to understand the
meaning of it all ... where are we all going ? maybe that really is the
meaning, I mean maybe the meaning is the question. I dont mean to say
that life runs amok on all these incongruous courses with the purpose
of slowly making it to wherever we end up, but more so that maybe each
day is set finit there is the beginning and the end which restarts the
beginning and we are just one part of that cycle. Maybe if one day we
all got off our high horses and stopped fighting for control, and did
waht came naturally, to live, love and flourish nurture and where
innocent in our lives, less quick to judge so much as to not be able to
return a smile to an amiable stranger, then we would understnad that
higher learning that comes from pure, basic innocense . I feel like
anything is possible, if only i could turn my dreams and goals, into
reality, and purpose. and do instead of want to do and be who i am
inside instead of on the edges and corners of my being enough with this
straight laced epiphone of good will, lemme be good wil in a reality of
myself, lemme be spiritual in my own way. F*** my inner democracy, look
out world, here i come, all grown up and ready to change you.