Onlook

you look at me in complete disapproval, what do I have to live for
your eyes tell me
each breath, each inch of air that drives through my scarred lungs
burns like fire
each tormenting beat thudding from my heart, hits me like a punch
i long sometimes to pull them out, rip them from inside me
my throbbing heart held in my hand, blood dripping from my gapping
chest
no longer will i have to breath
your stares have beaten me, crushed me to a messy pulp
i no longer can fight the agony i live each day
its not just my mind anymore, my body hates me to, slicing pain
throughout my bare white flesh
inside i am numb, outside i am dead, let me take my last breath
and in my mind be happy