IBD

I cannot shine beneath your sky.
You leave me tired and confused.
You have taken many years from me,
polluted me and made me weaker.
You have isolated me from the ones I loved.
You have strained my bond with those who stay.
You sabotaged me in the dawn of my life
before I even knew your name.
You made me bleed and you eat away at me,
remind me always of your presence.
You were there in all my memories it seems,
you are the doubt in all my attempted plans.
You are the the end and beginning of my known reality.

They tell me that when you are gone I will feel as I never before have,
they say when you are gone I will be able to live.
When you are gone there is only one thing I will know for certain, I will never get back what you have taken from me.