A..Thoughts Pure and Simple

December 17,2002
We're born into this world innocent and for the moment uneffected by
the world's influence. Hopes and dreams fill our heads as we grow.It
would all be so nice if things from the time we are born until we die ,
would remain unblemished by society. Unfortunately , circumstances in
the real world tend to change people in ways unlike you would of ever
imagined growing up. Some people seem to just roll by the bumps in the
road of life , while other's fall apart. For those effected by lifes
drama....Suddenly they see.......The Reflection Of A Stranger.....
!
For myself , I'm not sure if I'm one of the one's uneffected or
effected by life. Over the past 18 months or so. I've been really
reviewing my life , it's circumstances and my decision's over the years
of my life.I've always been aware that my life from the very begining
was not the "Father knows Best" or "Leave it to Beaver" kind. In fact ,
my life was nothing close to the loving home we'd all like to think
exist for everyone. But.....I've cried my tears and try to get past the
anger. As I've examined my life , I've either tried to understand the
reason behind the bad . Or, made excuses for the way people hehaved
that were involved over the years. I question that , are they excuses
or have I acknowledged and understood in my heart and soul the driving
force behind the mistreatment of people? I know that millions of
children and adults have misfortune in their life. Do they question and
wonder "Why" as I do? Are there answer's to that kind of
Question?
We're suppose to get over it. Water under the bridge so to speak!
Chalk it up to life's experiances , is another suggested statement. Can
we? Do we? Ever honestly get over it , or do we just smooth over? Push
it as far back into our thoughts , so to forget it? Put a mask on , or
act like not a thing in the world is bothering us. But , behind closed
doors , fall apart ?
My story may not be of any interest to one person. I hope that's not
the case. I'm writing my story for my own peace of mind....clossure
possibly. Maybe to let someone else know their not alone. Help someone
else by sharing my story and inner thoughts.Make new friends through my
story and getting email responses. Who knows at this time.Irregardless,
Welcome to my world. I'm "Ginger". I'm a thirty-five year old single
mother of one . Walk with me through the "Reflections" of my life.Your
company would be enjoyed and welcomed by me........

Sincerely,
Ginger/river