X- Too Far Out

damn its cold
and the rain is pouring
in a silent icy sheet
and no matter how loud im screaming
i cant cut through
so i want to get the knife
i want to cut the only way i know how
and im holding out because
i hate the scars
im holding out because
i dont want you to know how messed up i am
i dont want you to see what
your best friend has become
so i cut my insides with thoughts
ill be dead soon
and
ill fly above this world
and
everything will stop
and
everyone will feel sorry that they forgot
dont swim out to get me
im too far out.