ME

I wrote this 10 years ago after a girl had finished with me and I
was looking for love..........

ME.......

This girl who sits down the way,
Susan, that is her beautiful name.
The things I know, I severely want to say,
My aching head may make me bow with shame.

I see a wonderful woman, just my sort,
So adorable and funny with it, is she.
She is always on my mind being a thought,
I dearly wish she could be with me.

Her tender, sensitive touches I really like,
Her wit and presence is an immense treat.
To have herself in person near in my sight,
God, that sounds so profoundly sweet.

I torture her soul, I guess I know,
But from me it is not truly meant.
I completely and sincerely adore her so,
But my heart is so twisted and bent.

What do I do, where do we go from here,
My unsurity in life would be complete.
To have her sparkling personality near,
That surely and gratefully would be neat.

She could be there for the rest of my life,
But I want to cry with pain, cry out loud.
This feeling in me, a feeling of strife,
Surely this shouldn't be allowed.

Life can sometimes be such a mess,
I know she is there and can wait for me.
But my ailing heart is in turmoil and distress,
Something that everyone and no-one can see.

I deeply think the whole world of her so,
Because I know she is wonderful.
But she is not going to wait for me though,
Which will cause emptiness, a serious lull.

I am failing dismally to eat or think,
I dread the moment with loathsome fear.
Her rejection of me where my heart will sink,
Where apparently she is no longer near.

Is it right to write and to write like this,
I really don't know, you tell me.
But this beautiful thing I could miss
Coz she provides me with happiness and glee.

Susan, I sincerely adore you,
A true friend first you surely are.
But bare with me my darling Sue,
Because I believe we can go far.