Going back and forth to the hospital.

After I was discharged from the hospital I could not rest. I did not
take my leave from work at this point. I figure i will wait until my
child was home from the hospital. Four months later she was home, not
before going in and out of danger of not surviving many trails of
death. My daughter stop breathing many times and it was a while before
i got a chance to hold her.

On that special day she was taken home, I had many opinions especially
from my mother who's old beliefs that i shouldn't hold my child too
much because she will become spoiled. I wondered did she think i cared?
I think that she forgot that I did not get the chance to hold my child
for four months, so I was going to hold her every chance i got.

At night it was especially hard because i felt that if i had a partner,
he would had been there helping and relieving me every now and then.
Life was hard for the first five years because i had to make many trips
to the hospital with my child. She had breathing problems and many ear
infections. She did not want to take her milk and was losing weigh,
after all she had come home only weighing in at five pounds and also
being four months old.
Things got a little better after a year and her weigh went up to ten
pounds.