You, my dearest heart, will never win

You're my sweet black angel beating within me
Laughing at me and my realisms
Living in fantasyland where none of it really exists.

Me? At least I can dream my dreams, make them real
Instead of scalding romantic notions
Making end of week reports more important than inspirations

You think you can get anything you ever want
Everything to keep you happy and beating strong
An emotional time bomb wanting to be in fantasy forever

I can dream, I can believe, I discovered faith
I want to be adored I want to be happy I want to be loved
You can never accept this as you will never have that
Because you don't believe

I believe what the world is
Not the fairytale story
I live in the real world

I see only pain from you
I no longer see a head of thoughts and ideas
No real love or affection
Only thinking of monthly wages or files to put away

You think you have all the charm and beauty of the world
I have seen the anguish you endure
I do not have the naivety of your actions

I rather be naïve and innocent
Than bitter like sour fruit
See the essence of life
Than be broken by what life has threw me

I am broken
Life is harsh, full of disappointments
You live in a pretty picture
Of rose tinted colours.

I feel my love for you turning to hate
Something I never thought I would experience
Always your way or no way,
I don't think I can live like that for too long.
I'm only a heart with wings free to fly.

You think you're free and happy?
You are not.
Chained by me and I can keep you there
For as long as I want,
You will never be free.