Rape in 30 minutes lasts

You wonder, no matter how egotistical
you were
no matter how many lies you told,
you wonder
no matter how evil you were
if you deserve that thing that keeps you locked within --
a shut-up woman trapped within darkness
with Charlie Manson as your savior.
Penetration was not so painful, Just the
word "no" flowing through the hair and body
as he stuck his log up your...
without even an afterthought, having
put you on something that makes it impossible
to explain oneself.
It seemed like a Black Widow
spinning a fine, black, oozing ink
into patterns of intricate insinuations.
You just can't say anything without
feeling like a fool.
You can't touch him 'cause he knew you so well.
Afterward, you become an erotic pervert,
like a clock,
you keep on returning to the same time
of terror.
He didn't even have the decency to clothe you,
but flung a magazine over your face.