Here I go again, off down the road again...

Monday 1st March 2004.

Oh, boy so much to tell.

Last night I did something mad ... I was Thelma and Louise without a
Louise.I was talking to a VERY good friend off the internet. We were
both stuck in alone on a Saturday night. Marty was staying at his
cousins. I was sitting, after a bath, in my, 'sex kitten' nightie.
Believe me, you have never seen anything less sexy, or kittenish for
that matter. It was just turned midnight, I was almost ready for
calling it a night and going to bed. Although our conversations have
been pure and innocent, (he's a real gent) some petty electric sparks
have been flying backwards and forwards between us for some
weeks. He thought the whole Computer blowing Marty episode was
hilarious.

He asked me if I ever do anything mad and spontaneous. I said that I
rarely get the oppertunity. He asked me if I was up for a dare. Now
come on, me, refuse a challenge like that?

The next thing I knew, I was dressed and charging down the motorway to
meet him for a coffee in the, half way between us services. (lit public
place, safe) long drive! I bought him a teddy to commemorate our first
meeting. He bought me Dido's latest CD.

Because it was turned midnight before I left I didn't have the time to
make any effort. No make-up, no heels, just me in jeans and denim
jacket. My hair was still wet and I knew it would dry all over the
place. It was way below freezing and my car has no heater, or latterly
music either.

The second we met, two ton of chemistry hit us on the head and we fell
for each other immediately. We sat until six am in the cafe talking
about everything under the sun. Then we sat until eight.thirty am in
his nice warm car, not saying much as the sun rose.

When I saw him in person, I was so disappointed. I wanted him to be a
little bit fatter, a little bit plainer, a little bit less sexy in the
ribbed jumper and tight jeans so that he might want me.

We had an awkward moment in the car when he asked me how I felt about
him and the emotional shutters came down. I explained that just being
friends was fine by me. He agreed that it was okay and that's the way
it would be then.

We sat in silence (the first of the night) for a few minutes and then
he
said, "Look, I know I'm not what you're looking for and that this
might
scare you away but if I don't say it now, I never will. I have to be
honest with you and I'd like us to be more than friends." He actually
said much more than that and later told me off for making him sweat but
that's sort of paraphrasing ? and anyway some things are personal you
know ;-).

I tell you, I think the car was three foot in the air on the drive
home, never mind just me. I wish the whole world could be as happy as I
am today. He's called Rick (false name) by the way.

I sang all the way home, we'd been up most of the night the previous
two, talking on the internet and phone so I had to do something to stay
awake. When I got home a beautiful email was waiting for me, thanking
me for a memorable night. I agree totally. I know it wasn't a
conventional meeting, but it was so romantic and whatever happens, I
will never forget it?

His letter.

Was rudely awoken by my alarm, the sun was streaming through the chinks
in the curtains and I lay there in the cold light of the day with a
daft grin on my face.

Tried to piece things together and gave up after awhile, all I can tell
you is I am being 100%, feel great and looking forward to the future. I
don't know where it will take us and don't want to go down that road
yet, let's take things day by day, no guarantees on either side, lets
just enjoy it.

From my point of view if after the "novelty" for want of a better word
has worn off, this is the initial danger point and if I was smacked
over the head with "this is not right" I would be worried sick about
not only hurting you but losing you as a friend.

I however know how I feel right now and am looking forward to the rest
of the day, brain may not be working, so today it's having a rest and I
am speaking from my heart.

Could never have hoped for a night like last, a memorable first meeting
which I will treasure forever, thank you, and I am glad I took that
mental snapshot of you its now on constant replay.

Enough of that though, going to get off my backside and get sorted for
the day ahead. See you very soon.

My heart is with you the rest following on.

Rick XXX

He came to see me today, armed with flowers. We'd only had a couple
of
hours sleep when we got to our respective homes, we hardly talked when
he arrived, just enjoyed not having to do anything at all and being
together. He didn't stay long, had to get back for his son. I love the
way he kisses me. I feel cared about and wanted. It wasn't like this
with any of the others.

He said he doesn't want to take our relationship further until the time
is right. He said, "It has got to be special," I think that's one of
the nicest things anyone's ever done for me. I want to take it slowly
too.

Oh,boy I've got it bad.

Watch this space.