Filth
By susiespringfield
Sat, 17 Nov 2018
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Stuck and bitter
And fragile and hollow
Nothing left but a stingy pain
That holds me down down
Down and deeper down
I try until I cry
I'll cry until I die
Trying is dying
I just can't do it anymore
I have nothing left to give
I have nothing to create but mistakes and twisted fates
Has the darkness taken hold of me?
Or have my failures worn me down
To a useless piece of sloppy shit with nowhere left to run
I've run out of what to do
I've slowed down to a halt and only want to die
I'll die or I'll cry forever more
Hating myself and my faulty head
Nothing left to kill
Nothing left to blame
Except myself, my body, my mind, my mess
Bereft and upset I say my goodbyes
The unbearable kindness that pokes out my eyes
I can't see if you do that
I 've surrendered to lose
No one understands the pain I feel
It rips and thumps at my innermost core
Help kills me more and reminds me of all that I am not
I am a twisted and a frayed knot that's
destined to rot
Rot in heaven
Rot in hell
Rot wherever you go
Dirty knickers and thrushy sheets
Hanging around as reminders of your
Filthy-ness
The nest is infected and rancid and damp
Festering and breeding and seething with puss
Throw her out and start again
Dust off the sheets and start again
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