The untold

I miss you when you are here
Because you are not who you were
I’d always tell you that I loved you
& that I’d always care
You never got to know
When you’d gone too far
I’d always think that it would end
If I lost my temper, seem irrational
You were my dream come true
& made it feel so real
Why make it a nightmare

When you told me off
For doing no wrong
I got confused inside
& blamed myself for making you mad
For you are perfect
I never felt totally wanted
All the others you sort after
Telling me how I could change
To be more like them
I never told you
I’m not them