Crimson River

A crimson river,
waves of pain,
a decision taken from my hands.
I should feel relief,
it's for the best......
so why do I feel so sad?

The pain is my punishment,
it holds all my guilt
It hurts so much.
But why do I cry?
I wanted this....
didn't I?

A crimson river,
waves of pain,
pain that I must bear alone,
no one to share my loss,
a dark secret
forever hidden.