Overcoming Even Yourself

I, as Lou Gehrig did, consider myself the luckiest person in the
world. I have Bipolar Disorder, a "disease" that can render myself
often helpless, but sadly, often hopeless too. I have died a thousand
deaths in my lifetime, but only recently have I lived. A woman entered
my life that I once only believed could happen in my dreams. She
captivated my heart, mind, and soul. She made me belief in things that
only were fantasies of a forgotten place deep within me.

As I stated earlier, I suffer from Bipolar Disorder. This can make me
almost appear as different people altogether, in a very short period of
time. I have often said that I don't wish myself on anyone. But I could
not fight the love of this woman, and couldn't bear now to be without
it or her. She has seen each side of me....the good, the bad, and yes,
the ugly. More importantly, she sees through each of those and sees
"me". She has dried tears of pain and of joy. She has supported me in
the darkest hours, and continues to ask "what more can I do".

The most amazing thing about her is what she expects in return. You are
probably already thinking "nothing"....but that's not the case. She
expects me to support her, to live up to her's and my own expectations.
She expects me to live. For that reason alone, she has been the most
important part of my life to this point, and I can't imagine a life
without her.

There's not much more than I can add to this, except to say that within
the darkest corners of my heart lay a thousand empty promises, dreams,
and passions. But thanks to one woman, the light shine bright within.
Thank you Laurie....for being that light, and I pray that you will
shine on within me forever, and that I can illuminate you also.