J (malediction)

i lie alone in the caverns of my soul
waiting for that one thing
for something to make me whole
forever scorned in Heavens' gaze
here I shall stay, what can i do
a million stars shine in the sky
and a billion more beyond that
which one is me, what is true
the clock ticks slowly, slightly insane
i stand hear waiting to hear my name
for who am i yearning
for what do i want
destiny churning
where will i find my fate
for now i am waiting
no tears left to cry

11/30/00