Eulogy

It’s cold. Extremely cold. It’s weirdly dark and the last thing I remember was laughing. You know when you die people say you see a beautiful white light and-and that you’ll see a loved one waiting for you on the other side...I can’t be dead right? It’s just so dark, I-I don’t see Mom waiting for me, I don’t see a beautiful warm white light...Where Am I?! I scream but I can’t even hear my own voice. It’s like I’ve been swallowed in by a pit of darkness. I feel like I’m floating yet feel as though I’m being embraced by death himself….I’m scared, mommy I’m so scared... I don’t remember what happened. I don’t know how I got here. I want to scream and shout so bad but my body isn’t reacting...I’m not reacting! Help, please! Someone just please help! Ha, who am I kidding? No one going to hear me anyway... 

                                                        XXX

Here lies a young beautiful soul of a girl who once thought she ruled the world. The soul of a person who thought they were invincible. As we are gathered here today, we celebrate her life and only pray that God opens up the gates of heaven to receive a girl who just wanted to be happy. We all understand that this moment is not easy...It will probably never get easier but all we can do is relive those beautiful memories we have and hold them close. She was so stubborn and reckless yet I loved that about her. The way her smile just made my day better and even just seeing a glimpse of her made my heart leap a thousand feet. I still don’t understand why this had to happen? Why did she have to go and leave me behind so quickly? A piece of soul died today and went with hers...I will forever remain alone as I watch my rose wither into nothingness. 

Farewell, My love for this day only made me realize how much sooner I should’ve given you my name…

Always and forever my lovely Katalina.

                                                 XXX

What have I done?! I’m sorry! I’m so sorry! Please this hurts! I need to see him again! I should’ve listened...I should’ve been better...I should’ve been so much better...I’m so tired. I want to sleep so bad, all of this makes me so tired. I hope when I wake up I see him.

Goodnight my Adonis, I will see you soon my love. Never forget how much my heart burned for you…

Always and forever My Adonis.