Q journal entry 7/31/04

This is the letter I just sent to Ashland, OR Chief of Police
Michael Bianca:


"My name is Sean Nelson. Like you, I believe that the police
should be "an institution for peace and justice." I am a peaceful and
law abiding citizen. For nearly a year now, your police have harassed
me and repeatedly violated my civil rights. I was assaulted by another
citizen and defended myself. I alone was charged and did not receive a
trial for seven months. This is not the "speedy trial" our constitution
guarantees me. The person who assaulted later burglarized my house, was
seen on the scene and your police did nothing. She has also de-frauded
my blockbuster account for about $500 and this likewise received no
response. Now your boys are harassing me when they have no legal
grounds. I've put in a citizen's complaint, though I should have put in
five, and it has not been acted on. If you really are a civilized
person who believes in "peace and justice," please research my
case."


This is what I wish I would have added:


"I am a Jedi Knight. To quote Luke Skywalker, 'Do not
underestimate my powers.' To quote Jay-Z, "We blow smoke in your face,
set fire to your empire. You want war, then war it's gonna be. I won't
rest til you're on one knee, man."

2nd entry: I'm just sitting at my Mom's house. I drove here to find her
but she's not here. I'm allowed to hang around here. She has a jacuzzi
in the back. I've done well in that I haven't touched alcohol since I
decided not to. And that in the face of these police attacking me. I
was just driving in my car listening to this Jay-Z song. I've never
done this before but I rolled the windows down and just blared it. It
was that song off the curse, "H-O-V-A, I got my mojo back, baby oh
behave." And when I got here, I left it blaring till the song ended. I
did this out of respect for Jay-Z. He designed the song and I thought I
should let it play in full. I felt like I was drifting off. I feel so
laid back these days. I'm focused. I'm not afraid of anything,
including death. As a matter of fact, my life has involved so much
suffering that I look forward to death; really. But I'm out for
victory. This is war. Also today, I wrote the Governor, who my dad
helped elect, the mayor of Ashland and the Chief of Police. Next, I'm
going to write Jay-Z himself but not mainly about the Fawn issue. I
know I probably won't get a response. But he's a very enlightened man.
And I just want to say to him-"I'm another enlightened spirit who's out
here and I'm struggling." I could use his help. I have a lot of
creative power and a lot of plans. I've got game; I just need a chance
to play.