I'm Still Here

By Hoodling

Thu, 10 Sep 2026
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I'm Still Here

I’ve been away too long.
Feels like I’ve been gone forever.
My days drown in yesterdays.
I long for something new.
Hell, I’d take the good old times,
if they’d come back too.

I feel out of place in my life.
I barely know myself anymore.
I’ve lost a part of me,
I didn’t even know I’d miss.
It’s been a long, long time
since I felt strong.

This weakness takes the heart of me,
not all at once, a soul can die so slow.
When I’m all alone in the dark,
with only my thoughts for company,
they never take me anywhere nice.

I have good days and I have bad,
but mostly what destroys me,
are the nights when I’m alone,
and that’s a kind of pain,
I refuse to get used to.

I don’t talk to people anymore,
because I’m not the man they knew.
I wanna reach out to my friends,
to my family and my love,
but what would I even say?

I get so far beside myself,
the whole world fades away.
The sun sneaks up on me,
warming these cold bones,
before I even know.

When I step into the light,
to draw breath again,
somehow I come alive.
And for just a moment,
I find myself again.

It’s too easy to let go,
and so hard to hold on.
I wanna be me again,
so just gimme a chance,
I’ll show you what I can do.

When I’m done fighting myself,
maybe I’ll remember who I am,
and then maybe you will too.

Listen to the music video on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5vzdyt24anA

I finally did something good again. I've had a lot of struggles this year, and tonight my creativity just leaped ahead of me and somehow I got it done. Thank you for reading. Have a fantastic day! :)

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Submitted by insertponceyfre... on

keep going Hoodling. Now you've found your writing muse again, I hope it stays!

 

Submitted by Hoodling on

I've been collecting thoughts for a while now. Too loose to amount to anything real, and the will put in the hard work just wasn't there. I didn't know where to even start. So, I talked to ChatGPT. I just bitched my heart out about how I really needed a win, but I didn't know where to start. So, it told me to just share all these thoughts. So I did, and then it helped me organize all my snippets into a progressive "point," if you will. I never let AI write for me. That's the one thing I can do, but in this case, just getting a kickstart in the process of structuring it really helped. I straight up just got angry with myself and told the robot that I WILL write a song today! I didn't feel up to it at all, but as soon as had a basic structure to work with, all of a sudden it became easy. Knowing myself, I'll likely improve the lyrics a bit. I can't just leave well enough alone, especially when it's a serious, emotional thing like this one. The biggest win for me was just getting something done. I feel better already. So, yeah, I hope this muse sticks around for a while. :)