Remembrance

Remembrance

By: Frank Wirth Jr.

Alfred Lord Tennyson once said:
It is better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all

A friend once said:
It is harder to have loved and lost
Than to have lost a love for life

I have committed the most infamous crime anyone could have committed.
That is to take ones love for me and throw it out the window.

My punishment is to live in emotional anguish, thinking of the way it
could have been, knowing that my poor actions in my once blissful
relationship have lead me to the sadness that now has overtaken
me.

I don't look forward to doing anything. The things that I do sadden me.
Having the feeling that someone out there cares and loves me has been
taken away by my own selfish actions is the most pathetic feeling in
the world.

For years I have awaited this one, the person that will complete me,
the one that I can say "I love you" to and always hear it back.

It is terrible the way that I feel right now. My tears run dry from the
hours of immense pain and yearning for this love that I have taken away
from me.

Why? I keep asking myself, waiting for a reasonable answer, any answer.
Why did I do this to myself as well as the one I love, I still talk to
her. I put on fake acts almost every time I talk to her to keep myself
from turning into an emotional ball of pathetic sorrow, just to be sure
that she will be all right.

One week has past, just one week. I have felt the same sadness that had
fallen over me the same instant that I have torn her away from
me.

I just wish that everything will be better, be the way it used to be
when we could hold each other tight, hold hands and make passionate
love.

I have a feeling that it won't be better, I can't hold her, touch her
or be with her. This is the melancholy the overwhelming emptiness that
lies within my heart. This is what I have done to myself; I have taken
true love for granted.

Out of all the things that I may wish for in my lifetime may it be
money, women, or fame. For one to come true this is the one, for anyone
out there take your love hold it tight and never let it go no matter
what. I never wish the pain that I feel right now on anyone.

I do not ask for pity, I do not ask for sympathy, I simply ask for love
to come over me once again.

Love doesn't hate
Love doesn't get jealous
Love doesn't ask why
Love loves all
Love never fails

So?. Mr. Tennyson;
If it is better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all

I ask you, how strong was your love.

Not as strong as my love for Amanda.