i was with(out)

I lost the one,
because i didn't see,
any more than having fun,
i wanted to be free,
i wanted to choose,
i wanted my own free Will,
i didn't see what i'd lose,
and i'm still left paying the bill,
i tried too hard to find,
something to make me feel,
i saw you in my mind,
but i never dreamed you real,
and now here you are,
and what have i found,
i wouldn't have come this far,
if time could be rewound.