Saudade*

The meaning of this word

it seems I’ve known for years

Despite that

I never sought it

I never thought it necessary

to give it a name

Preferring a selfish kind of exclusivity

to the feeling

I happened upon it

as I was feeling it the most

The instance

I think it’s gone now

but in my head

it’s so, so alive

Learning of this word

gave me some degree of comfort