Hatred

Hatred

There's a feeling that I just cannot stand,
A feeling that is so overwhelming.
It is the feeling of separation, disappearance and depression.
For some reason this feeling is unbearable to me,
But unfortunately, I feel this way.

As the days pass,
No longer does he send txt msgs,
In the middle of the night,
To tell me that he loves me,
Whether it's after leaving each other on a good or bad note.
No longer does he acknowledge me for who I am.
No longer does he ask for me to join him in anything.
And no longer does he tell me everything,
Like I would to him,
No questions asked.

Just to think,
Are we really meant for each other?
Are we going to have to fight to make this work?
Or are we just going to cooperate?
Is he really my other half?
Or is it just what I wanted it to be?
Am I only fooling myself?
Please say it isn't so¦
For if it was,
I would die.

I've given everything I have onto him,
From kindness to meanness,
From lovingness to aggressiveness.
From understanding to stubbornness,
And from accusation to forgiveness.
I did every thing out of love
Why do I feel that he is distant from me?
Is he losing interest in me?
Does he wish to love someone better?

Today he said the words of truth,
After entering my room,
He stated "it felt like I haven't been in here in a minute
Why is that so?
I just don't know.
How am I suppose to think,
When he no longer speak words of comfort?
It seems like I am now just a friend with benefits.
I hate this feeling.