You dont know

You dont know how much it still hurts,
the pain and sorrow still bleeding.
You cant know how much I still miss you,
the beasts of loneliness still feeding.
I stare at myself in the mirror,
my eyes burn down to my soul,
I look at myself in disgust and I wish I was buried and gone.
I turn away from the reflection not seeing what I deserve,
my nightmares become reality and my reality becomes my nightmare, i
lock myself away in my mind and spend my life scared.