Confused

Blank, unfeeling, blank, mind, head, spinning, confused.

Insufferable quest to be the best

Lost but high above the rest

Falling, falling, falling down

Down to the ground, i can't make a sound

Blank, unfeeling, blank, mind, head, spinning, confused.

Darkness all around, no one there

Nothing in my head, cos i don't care

Just getting by, my life is a lie

Don't know what i'm saying, should i wave goodbye

Blank, unfeeling, blank, mind, head, spinning, confused.

I'm angry, raging, a lion pacing

Insane, cos inside my heart is racing

I feel like i hate you but really i don't

Wanna take it all out but know that i won't

Blank, unfeeling, blank, mind, head spinning, confused.

You struggle to see why i have to be the best

Don't understand it's cos i feel better than the rest

I'm selfish and deep down inside i know

So every time i act it i expect you to tell me where to go

Blank, unfeeling, blank, mind, head, spinning, confused.

It's never my fault cos "I'm a perfect child"

Perfect at being a jerk cos i wanna be wild

Don't think i can cope anymore

Might just leave all i have and walk out the door

Blank, unfeeling, blank, mind, head, spinning, confused.

I don't deserve what i've got

Something i love, but long ago forgot

Keep wanting to turn my life round start a new page

But every time i try i end up in a rage

Blank, unfeeling, mind, head, spinning, confused.

So i'm asking you now as a friend whom i adore

To help me change, not be that person anymore

Cos if i have one wish this year

It's to respect myself and all those i hold dear.