Forgive Me

I had lost my sanity,
trying to be avant-garde...
please forgive me but
although you may take this as a
patronizing anomaly,
you are more like a
daughter to me
than anyone else...

I was so sick and tired of
being treated like a 16 year old
but soon
I became childish in order to fit in:
I was also tired of being
accused of so many things I did not do
that I acted as though I had done that thing,
and it was unbearable,
the way people made me apologize for every little thing,
somethings that everyone else did
with impunity.

I was treated as a neuter which made me
aggressive, even absurd... inflated, and
I was so filled with hatred for this society
that made me into such a thing
that I became nicely, even sarcastically
rude:

it's a sad justification for an old man,
me hitting thirty two soon,
but I think that
you have matured brilliantly and make me
proud,
even smiling,
but please, stop this crazy game,
I really apologize.