Black Outs

WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BE
ORDERED BY THE COURT
THREE TIMES
WHY DID YOU EAT DINNER
WITH HIM
A YEAR LATER
WHY DID HE NOT
GO TO JAIL
LIKE HE WAS SENTENCED TO
WHY DID I WAKE UP WITH
MY PAJAMAS ON
THE FLOOR
WHY DON'T YOU KNOW WHERE
THE TRANSCRIPT IS
WHY DON'T YOU COME TO
THERAPY WITH ME
WHY WERE YOU SO NICE TO ME
FOR AWHILE
AFTER YOU KNEW
WHAT HAPPENED TO ME
WHO WAS THAT STRANGE MAN
WHO CALLED ASKING
PERSONAL QUESTIONS
HE SAID HE
KNEW ME
I DID NOT KNOW HIM
WHY DID YOU PRETEND
IT NEVER HAPPENED
AFTER A FEW MONTHS
OR WERE YOU TOO
SCARED YOU WOULD
UPSET ME
WHY WON'T YOU TELL ME
WHAT HAPPENED AFTER
WHY DO I FEEL THERE
ARE STILL MORE
SECRETS
MORE LIES
I REMEMBER A LOT
BUT NOT EVERYTHING
THE THERAPIST SAYS
I COULD BE BLOCKING OUT
PAINFUL MEMORIES
AS A WAY
TO SURVIVE
WHY DO YOU LIE
WHY DO YOU HIDE
THINGS FROM ME
IT HAPPENED SO LONG AGO
I AM SO CONFUSED
DON'T YOU KNOW
WHY IS IT ME
WHO HAS TO DO ALL THE WORK
DON'T YOU KNOW HOW
BAD I HURT
SOMETIMES
AFTER THINKING ABOUT
IT SO MUCH
I WISH THAT
I COULD BLOCK YOU OUT
AT LEAST FOR A WHILE
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL
WOULD YOU EVEN CRY
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL
TO KNOW THAT I
WISH YOU GONE
WHEN IT'S LATE AT NIGHT
YOU KNOW YOU'RE WRONG

TELL ME PLEASE
JUST ONE THING
DO YOU GET A THRILL
FROM BEING
SO MEAN