Freya
By owl_of_oz
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i fell for you,years on end.
failing to pretend now, i feel allowed to say what i need to
say..
years of seeing you,being with you and u not knowing..showing nothing
but friendship towards the little boy who was beyond his time..
thinking ahead,loving those who dont love back.
i thought it was love, i thought it was deep. failing to let go,i saw
it was steep.. twisting away, spiraling down.. spreading
thoughts,nothing but frowns.
confessing to you meant so much to me,it meant a decision that would
effect me deeper then you could ever consider.
its hard to make that move,its harder then anything pysical..mentally
its challenging. managing to cope over something no-one understands..so
you think.
so i thought.
turns out memories keep us attached, who needs to be together when you
can think together,thats something no one can get to.
we arrange to meet every year, sometimes twice a month...sometimes
three times a week. it never happens.. we both know it will be
awkward,after telling you what i have,i dont blame ur reactions.. u
seem emthusiastic,i think its curiousity...
its not to be.
what if he has changed....? what if he looks better? vanity matters to
her..?
whilst wondering batters her.. she keeps at hand,those thoughts we both
understand.. things we know,things we dont...the realisation is... we
never will.
this is just me..she has no imput on how i see
i assume this is true,mainly because i want it to be.
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