"Mapmaker"

Staring holes through an empty ceiling
Sleep doesn't show itself some nights
Distracted by that certain feeling
I think I scare myself sometimes
After years of running in the wrong direction
I'll finally admit that I am lost
Broken down, stranded but I'm still standing
Handing out pictures, trying to find myself at any cost

I'm hiding from the sunlight
Trying to avoid the burn
Looking for a reason to show my face
But it seems I'll never learn

I want to be happy but I keep my distance
Because where happiness lives
Fear lurks beside it

There are stapled names and pretty faces
On my heart, it has sunk to the bottom
My hope never learned to float
So I'd rather it just be forgotten
If you find me where they left us
Reattach this concrete to my chest
and I'll start the slow climb back to the surface

I'm hiding from the sunlight
Trying to avoid the burn
Looking for a reason to show my face
But it seems I'll never learn

I want to be happy but I keep my distance
Because where happiness lives
Fear lurks beside it

Stitching maps out of my broken skin
Trying to find my way inside your head
But it's gonna take more than this
I know it's gonna take more than this
I know it's gonna take more than this

I'm hiding from the sunlight
Trying to avoid the burn
Looking for a reason to show my face
But it seems I'll never learn
Oh no I'll never learn