dream log

8/22/04


I let myself sleep until 12:00. Any dreams were very sketchy
and I was unable to retain them. It's raining outside and my Mom is
going to take me out to lunch.


Oh yeah, I remember one. I ran into my friend next door. He
said that he was going somewhere to pick up a can opener. Now, I need a
can opener right now because I'm low on food and much of what I have is
canned, including a couple huge cans of baked beans. So I told him that
I might as well come along and get one myself. We got into his car
together. In reality, I can't remember my friend's name. He's a little
psychotic. He tried to get me to join his cult/mafia the other day. I
really just go over there because he has a bong.


Oh yeah, I remember one more dream. I was wandering around a
shopping village with my parents, Papa and Kathy, and they had espresso
there. Apparently, I had re-pierced my left ear. Now I pierced my left
ear back in the seventh grade and it got badly infected and it is still
infected. It's a constant source of misery for me. I wish I could get a
doctor to remove the cist, get on anti-biotics and take care of it. But
there are so many things going on and the police won't leave me alone.
But, to get to the point, I was wearing this hoop earing with funky
little colored beads on it, kind of a girly thing. And I was looking
for a cooler earing, hoping my parents would buy it for me. I remember
seeing this ying-yang stud earring that was not quite shaped right so I
passed it up the first time but I believe I later decided to get
it.

8/23

First, let's get some back-ground information. Fawn is my
ex-girlfriend. We lived together for about a year and a half. During
that time, I developed a serious, stress related stomach problem. The
relationship ended when she punched me and I punched her back harder. I
went to jail and related legal consequences have wrecked my life for
the past nine months and do not appear to be stopping. She has a
restraining order on me that I'm in trouble for violating even though I
never violated it or intended to in any way. In real life, I've never
sought Fawn out since the end of our relationship.

All right, here's the dream I had last night. I was at some kind of
luxurious YMCA and Fawn happened to be there. She was in the swimming
pool, swimming back and forth. Now, she's a little overweight but
doesn't have an unpleasant shape. And she was just kind of swimming
back and forth in this little area like she used to. And I kept looking
at her; just looking for some kind of answer or something. I swam on
the other side of the pool and then waited outside, not to make contact
with her but just to see her. Well, it turns out she ended up sitting
right across from me and I looked up and saw her. She must have left
because then I saw her on the playground outside. Additionally, I
remember I spent some time in this area with snack dispensing machines
and chips kept on just falling out of it for free.