I'm mortally wounded- within days I will die, though many times I have perservered beyond nearly fatal damage. The job I have to do is to re-establish meaning and dignity- and considering that I'm dying for my altercation with our society, it's hard to argue that I don't have the right to a few words- there is no action for a dying person, and laughter at funerals has always been known as a base and vile sin. Yet there has been so much mockery and laughter- and this has largely been the cause of the bitterness and continued bad blood- the insult added to injury... a brutal treatment certain authorities have given one who, in all truth, laid down earthly power to avoid nuclear war- one who submitted to President Obama because according to the New York Times etc., a Russian jet loaded with nuclear missiles had just buzzed an American air-craft carrier, and tensions were next to that war we've had to strive against from the Berlin airlift to the Cuban missile crisis.
To avoid an unthinkable nuclear war, we had to make serious sacrifices, to sacrifice politics and power, to temporarily sacrifice democracy in order to save it. I allowed myself to temporarily become a prisoner of the state for these serious reasons, presented by the press and President, and what's gone on since is that this imprisonment has been indefinitely detained- that without being given a legal trial, my every movement and personal intimacy has been video-taped 24/7 and this information has been shared not only with government agencies but with private corporations, who freely used the data and video for commercial purposes, without providing the payment that would have made dignity and actual choices possible.
And really this clearly unconstitutional behavior has been justified under 'education,' as if our society was all together... in great order, ready to re-educate dissidents in the better way. Surely, society has much to teach, but it's impossible to learn when presented in this way. And just as clearly to the honest eye, society has much to learn when an internet blog could... expose the unstable reality, that we were close to nuclear war: this being a reason we should avoid belligerence in our discussion of international affairs, though this was not my literary 'sin' in the first place.
I realize that I've always been imperfect, and capable of hubris and arrogance. What shocks me is that so many are so unable to make the same acknowledgement... would rather just bury dissidents in surveillance, violence and comedy routines rather than seriously consider our messages and their history. Will these same people go on T.V. the next week and have the temerity to talk about democracy, and invite ideas from the crowd... as if to publicly speak new ideas were a safe thing to do!