What I Honestly Want

I long for joyous days,
for the sun's comforting rays
for self-discipline
prosperity
for serenity within
reasons for pride
for men of influence on my side
melodic songs to sing
women and offspring
to hear sweet love songs without a tear
to cross streets without irrational fear
to filter the sounds I hear
to nurture my oft psychotic brain
to alleviate my chronic spinal pain

to finally from the bottle abstain!

to see the blue sky of true civilization
replacing the red fog of modern war,
to swim in a healing ocean
to through rich green Oregon pine forests run
to be free of my myriad neurosis
to not be constantly assaulted by TVs
to say success without a "wince"
for free and easy confidence.

But now I go to sleep,
and my life won't change completely over-night,

but I'm honestly glad to be alive,
and though much is wrong with me,
much is right;
much that I wish for I have in some degree,
(more than I deserve in some ways, honestly)
along with opportunity to pursue a life of higher worth
for myself and for others who share this planet earth!!