Self Jealousy

Self Jealousy

Really? 

Do you turn away from truth 

because of who you may become?

Do you hate the future you 

because he owns exactly what you want?

Do you shroud yourself in lies 

because the you right now is wrong?

You are jealous of the truth-filled you!

You have been all along!

So you killed him at his very source 

without care for what you’ve done!

Do you neglect your sleep 

because you’re jealous of tomorrow's you?

Because he’s full of energy

and vigour like a man anew?

Tomorrow he’s a wreck 

because of what you wouldn't do!

You put a weight around his neck!

And now that man is just like you!

Do you neglect your training 

because it means right now that you are weak?

Do you ignore the mountain 

because it reminds you you’re not at its peak?

Are you avoiding others 

because you won’t admit you’re all alone?

Do you stare in awe at all of those who've grown?

Yet you postpone!
He is not who you’re becoming!

You’re a victim of this fallacy!

And for him, you dare allow jealousy!

Heresy! You really think he isn't you!

And so you make it so!

This feeling isn’t fresh or new! 

Shame! You make sure better isn’t you!