Trapped

I spent yesterday with my two best friends Sarah and Dianna and we
did what we do best, talk about guys. As we sat in Sarah's kitchen,
gossiping as we do at the end of every Friday night, I realized how
similar our conversations always were. We were trapped in the same
place we could never manage to move past no matter how hard we try.
Dianna, who is a pretty, funny girl with a strong religious upbringing,
has been in love with the same guy for 10 years now. Marc, was her
childhood best friend and they used to spend every summer together when
she was 10. After awhile they lost touch but she would always talk
about him and was never able to forget him. She could never find the
nerve to call because she was afraid that he wouldn't remember her. And
I don't think he would have. Now she is 18 and after loosing touch with
him but never actually able to completely forget him, she found
him&;#8230;.in her college. And she has been trapped ever since.
Marc is actually very funny and flirtatious but he is the kind of guy
who would be super sweet with you one day and act like he doesn't even
know who you are the next. I think he knows that Dianna is smitten with
him but he enjoys the attention she gives him, despite Sarah's attempts
to make her move on. He just continually does the same thing over and
over, being sweet to her one day, making her deliriously happy, and
totally ignoring her the next day, confusing the hell out of her and
bruising her self esteem. I think he has a problem with her being so
religious and respectable when, truth is he is far from both. Sarah, on
the other hand is a beautiful, blond , boyaholic who is never satisfied
with herself, her looks or her life. She is also trapped but in a
completely opposite cycle. She falls in love with every boy she sees,
any boy who even gives her a second glance and then just looses
interest after awhile. Her boy de jour is Rick, a cute guy in her math
class. She talks about him all the time and even though she thinks he
likes her, she doesn't make a move and doesn't allow him to make one
either and in a week he'll be history and she'll be talking non stop
about another boy who probably won't last any longer. Me on the other
hand, I have been trapped in the same place since birth. I, for some
reason, never fall in love. We meet thousands of guys in college, in
parties and none of them, not a single one, has even sparked my
interest. Sarah and Dianna joke that I am a lesbian and I'm starting to
wonder myself. Once a long time ago, I fell deeply in love with a guy
in high school but it never went very far and since then I have
desperately tried to force myself into liking guys but when they show
interest in me I run for cover, very fast. But I go along, just for the
hell of it. I go to parties, I dress up, I flirt around but when it
comes to getting intimate I'm nowhere to be seen.
So there you have it. The three of us have never had a serious
boyfriend but each one for a different reason but in the end the three
of us are trapped.