Too Tired For Tears

Don't think twice,
Don't look again,
I'm smiling - grinning actually
Hiding the pain.

Hugging you I hope,
You haven't realised-
Your unworried eyes
Will stay that way
If I can help it.

Crossing my fingers,
Whatever you do,
Don't catch my hand,
And ask me what's true,
What's wrong, how I do

I do not know
How to love you.