Friends

Why me?
My friends all fight
I can’t get involved
But I can’t not
All alone
No one to talk to
Mask my feelings
No one understands
De ja vu
So scared
So lonely
I need a friend
A best friend
Only mine
Always there
Always ready
Willing to drop things
And run to me
Willing to give me
The space that I need
Able to see
How I really feel
Able to confide in me
Look up to me
A role model for me
Maybe I’m selfish
I’ve been told that
Once
But I don’t think so
I guess
I give up tons for my friends
I’m just too quiet
And shy
They can’t see
How I feel
And I can’t tell them
Not the truth anyway
It’d sound too weird
Maybe someday
I hope
Not alone
Please