Me (2010)

If I can pull this out the bag,
Then soon I won't have to keep looking back,
If I can get the words out, even in text,
Then watch out because you may be next,
But i'll take myself out first,
Even though you've been the worst,

Can't remember the last time I helped anyone,
People look at me like a jobless bum,

Gone a stray the past few months,
Tried not to show it but been down in the dumps,
Information overload,
My head is ready to explode,
Hence the return to poem writing
Then the thoughts won't keep on fighting,

Walking around and I feel fake,
Told her I liked her, one of many mistakes,
Can not say all that i've done,
But drinking's up at number one,

Double vodka's in the morning,
And then without any warning,
The evening is here,
And i'm now on the beer,
Not to mention all the joints,
Reading it now, what's the point,

Done things I wouldn't normally do,
I wouldn't have done them if it wasn't for you,
You once said I was an alcoholic too,
Looks like your dreams are coming true,
But i'll move on now because it's not your turn,
A couple more things I need to learn,

I snooped around in different places,
Where I found famliar faces,
Haven't been looking for a job,
Because I am a hopeless knob,
Then of course there was the thieving,
Don't use the excuse of grieving,

That's me now i'm a disgrace,
But slowly i'm re-finding my place,
When people see me they look away,
What is with that anyway?,
Let myself and my arm down,
But now this frown is upside down,

Time for me to start helping out,
Remembering what life is all about,
Still there's something I can see,
Something that they won't believe,
An angel disguised,
Because all they'll see is me.