Waiting

Time slowing, heart thumping silent phone - only message it to tell me my online bill is now avaliable.
So quite, so cold where are you - why does he make me wait so long.
Tears fall like autumn leaves swirling amongst the gutter...
I silently wait for you. You never call, you never arrive.
I am always on my own, your presence is so wanted and desired for. I cling on to the belief you will arrive and warm my broken radiator of a cold lonely heart. Previously loss in battle with another one of you