Requiem to a Friendship Damaged

~To past greivances~

 

If I disapeared

would I be missed?

 

Whould you notice

the girl you talk to

the girl whose words

you take for granted

is gone?

 

If I silenced myself

would you be glad?

 

I know I'm not normal

not dumb

not religous

but you would sense

that something is amiss

 

right?

 

I am hurt by your incapacity

to care when I speak

to care if I'm content without your god

to care if I'm trying to protect your health

you make my efforts a joke

 

I may just leave

I may just stay

 

this is the first time

I have been openly upset

I don't blame you for not noticing...

that much

 

Now that I have expressed my disdain

I notice others

brushing me off

I am reminded

of instances where I have been

hurt or ignored

 

like a cat

batting at a screen door

to be let back in

 

perhaps

it is better to stay alone

perhaps

I should build up my walls

to not be hurt

 

if everyone ignores me

why does it hurt so much

if you do?