I only wanna laugh
It's the hour before bedtime
and you have glum in your mouth.
I used to collect jokebooks. In second hand
bookshops and on market stalls I'd head straight
to the humour section and I wonder when it was
I learnt you have to have a good sense of humour.
Every day since I've been here a little bit of me has changed.
We all change all the time but right now
I'm like the sheepdog that becomes indistinguishable
from its sheep or like the sheep who realise this dog
isn't up to much maybe someone else needs to take charge.
I used to read the jokebooks before I went to bed
My parents would have to come into my room
and ask me to stop laughing which must have felt an odd thing
to ask someone you love to have to do.
When I worked in a hotel we were always laughing
all of us on the front desk quickly formed into the laughing
and non laughing groups and the people who didn't laugh
just didn't understand what we were doing but the thing is
I used to have a highlighter pen and go through each one
of the 1001 Funniest Jokes Ever book I was given for Christmas
and all of us are going to die, the three of us say
in our probation meeting, the hotel manager furious
that none of us ever take anything seriously
and we were all good at our job but the thing is,
we had met each other and we loved each other
and when was the last time anyone stopped you
to ask if you'd like to hear something funny.