Confusion

You creep up on me like a hunter does its prey,

Like a misty dense grey fog, you surround me

There isn’t a void that you do not fill,

Your presence casts a shadow on all that is before me

You are both above and below,

To the left and right of me

And like a caged wild animal, I want to escape you

You sound like a million voices chattering in my ears,

With different tongues and at different speeds and volumes.

I am unable to distinguish between these voices and do not know which one to pay attention to,

In fact my head aches in doing so.

You are neither hot nor cold,

Sweet nor sour,

Hard nor smooth,

Sharp nor blunt.

Your smell is odourless yet strong

You are a dictionary of information and at the same time a blank page

Like a jilted lover trying to mend a broken heart I try to look beyond you,

When I squint I believe I can see something in the distance,

But like a mother keeps a child from danger, you keep the answers I need from me.

You are like a broken compass, preventing me from knowing the true north

Like a magician you trick and fool me,

Providing a thin line between truth and illusion.

Your exit is as swift as your arrival,

Just as in magic, in a puff of smoke you are gone.

The fog has lifted,

Silence has returned,

And all I need is within my grasp, where it will remain.