Letter #2

To my lover, Chihiro

I guess our meeting was uneventful. We don't know that we lived next to each other until you asked where I came from. After then a meeting was arranged, and I went out with my fellows. The tactician, the warlock and the archer. Even if it was a short meeting between all of us, but you left quite an impression on me. Especially that short, brown hair that fits you so much.

Later then I found out that you used some kind of magic to hide your true identity. That was really interesting. Captivated, for a lack of a better word, I proceed to approach you. You were an an innocent little singer and I was a flamboyant playboy. You sang to your heart's content while I sang to lure people into my realm. It looked like you were sort of lured out to me, you even visited my place and spend some time with me... just talking and sharing about things. With some flirting, of course...

Then things proceeded and I was your samurai, while you were my geisha. Our relationship was as bumpy as it could get, but that process was necessary. Slow but sure, our love bloomed from then on and it was not long that we turned into two brothers of the same blood. Twins but not similar; unlikely but true. You are teasing yet innocent, intoxicating my mind, binding my soul. Strong, stubborn and shy I was until I met you... I think I've grown attached to someone of the same gender, and yet not.

You are beautiful as a woman and handsome as a man. Really, I still try to figure which side you are actually on. Although now that fact is bullshit because I love you, just the way you are; regardless of a woman nor a man.

Yet I still feel like you close out your heart to the world, allowing only one person to get in. You are a true lover that way; loyal and honest. I love you as much as I love myself. You've taught me how to behave, be polite to others and be free... and all at the same time be faithful and obedient. I wouldn't think you were doing the same occupation as mine because you are more mature and experienced.

Maybe now I should speak up... it's necessary. It's a little odd for me not to be possessive over you. I tend to do that to others; it feels like as if I am just there to be and not care about you. But I am telling you now, I really do. Even if I still have visible flaws, but I still care about you. I know you do the same thing to me too.

I want to know what is inside your heart. Tell me so I could help you too. But I'm scared to get too deep... it seemed that it bothers you and I don't want that to happen. But for you, my master and misstress... I will wait patiently until that day comes. Someday, I know that you will be drawn to me as much as I am drawn to you.

As your lover, I would be willing to completely accept your love. I only wonder what it would take for you to accept me as your lover as well. Let me join your harem and be a part of it amongst the men. I promise you I will be the best even if I am imperfect in every aspects. Pleasing you would be my utmost pleasure, my love, for you are the one I am living for.

For the words I couldn't say, I send you my regards.

- Ruben