journal entry 7/30/04

First, let's just say that cops are thugs with badges. Last night,
they came banging on my door because I'd accidentally written to an
ex-girlfriend of mine on an anonymous dating site. I could you tell you
the whole story and I suppose I will. This girl wrecked much of my
life. Then, she attacked me and punched me when I was very, very sick.
I punched her right back. For that, they threw me in jail and they've
been harassing me ever since. I've learned there were more civil rights
in Nazi Germany than there are in contemporary America. I always
cooperated. They had my future hostage. I'm applying to law schools. I
don't need a crimminal record. I can't tell you the details. But
basically, now it's war. I hear this pig Banes wants to talk to me
again. But I'm not talking with him because the last time I talked to a
cop, they misquoted me in their report. They lied and they did a lot of
damage. So, he's going to show up at my door and I'm gonna answer. He's
gonna say, "Can I come in?" and I'm gonna say, "No." And then I'm not
going to say a thing. If he arrests me, I'll mantain my silence. I'll
meditate. I'll read the bible. I'm about to notify the newspapers so
they'll be able to cover it. If it goes too far, I'll start a hunger
strike. And I won't leave jail til they give me justice. I'll just sit
in the waiting room and meditate. Using non-violence, I will take on
the system.

2nd entry: Well, it's evening now and I calmed down. I went in and
talked with the Sgt., the person over the officer I'm supposed to talk
with. Probably the best thing for me to do is to take some lie detector
test they have. I am telling the truth about the incident. Then they
won't rock the boat and I'll continue my path toward law school. But
today was a real break for me. From now on, I'm an outlaw. I've tried
to fit into society but they won't let me. From now on, I'll just rape,
burn and pillage.