Jessica's Life Journey (19) - Seek and You Shall Find

Whenever I'm in need of advice about a knotty problem that I find difficult to resolve, my first port of call is Uncle Jeremy.

He seems to have the knack for untangling any puzzling situation with consummate ease and recommends a suitable course of action.

That's what I was expecting when I related how I had found out that Will had not been truthful regarding the result of Samantha's DNA.

What I was not prepared for was a stern rebuke.

“My dear”, he thundered severely (and justly), ”if you want honesty and integrity from your partner, your conduct should be equally respectful but you have been underhanded in the way you got your information.”

I had to accept that I deserved the reprimand. Mea culpa, my fault,
I thought and made sure to show that I was suitably chastised and truly repentant of my transgression.

His attitude mellowed and his tone became more paternal.

“My dearest daughter”, he said, “your happiness is paramount to me and I see that your conflicting emotions are stopping you from achieving peace and contentment. It is time to sort out your priorities and decide what it is that you really want.”

Though subdued, I was ecstatic to hear him admitting being my father, which I had suspected for a long time.

He was right, of course, that it was my responsibility to decide what was important to me.

But what is it that I really want? Do I wish to preserve my independence and pursue a career to the exclusion of love, companionship and friendship?

Seek and ye shall find, says the old adage.

The first thing is to discover the truth, the most important factor that will determine the outcome.of my decision.

There is no doubt in my mind that what I feel for Will is more than just affection and if the chance arises once again I would be glad to marry him. 

More problematic is the question of trust. Until I found out that he had lied about the DNA test, I had no reason to question his veracity. Now I am not so sure.

I can only see a possible course of action: to have a showdown, lay my cards on the table and put a stop to the confusion.

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It is the end of another working day; Sam has just made a note of the latest booking, puts the phone on voice mail and shouts a cheery goodnight at Will and I who are ensconced behind closed doors, in the main office, ready to commence battle with our gloves off.

© Luigi Pagano 2022