And the next please

on certain days
i tire of speaking
to people i meet
and want to
withdraw into
another place

but something stops
me from making that trip
and i will myself
to engage
to converse
and i am human
again

a comment will make
me stop and I am a child
again
and the fears return

but the child within me
makes me the man
that i am
and stronger that I
realise

for interaction
makes me tick
the art of conversation
is a skill
and i rock

gestures
looks
shrugs
eye brow raising

love them all
reading them
interpretting them
learning from them
reacting
and responding

surprise me
when you talk to me
shock
flirt
argue
just don't depress
me

waste of time

but notice me
that's all i ask