The sun is paler as it withdraws
and beneath Autumn's iron greys
we age and the available paths seem to narrow.
My threads of patience are shred from daily repetitions
and I see I am weighed down by these marble opinions.
We have bred sociopaths who thrust and jostle in the fray.
Who we hope will flounder.
We have all forgotten how we were born:
bloody and unsheltered from the warm cushion
of amniotic simplicity.
Consigned to wet nurses of technology,
suckled on the teat of this pap -
how quickly we are exposed to the consciousness
of this interminable fucking series of transactions.
The colder exchanges, gestures and offers,
counter-offers, the negotiations.
But I have dreamt of my nakedness and freedom:
how I rejoiced until I encountered others
and then fled in a frantic search
for clothes to put back on.
These are the messages we send ourselves
when we are asleep; only to find when we wake
that the sandcastles we had built were dismissed
by a wave to eroded stubs and ruins.
The light coppers, trees forget their hope
and our feet bruise the leaves they've lost.
This procession of tropes and symbols
that populate our collective unconscious:
I have been Eve and Mary (both Marys),
I have been Lot's wife, forever in a glance
over my shoulder. And jaw unlocked
from pillar of salt - gone are the days
of my quiet or blind faith in anything.
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