Reflections Of Life And Sheila
By mcscraic
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Sheila to me she will always be, a treasure that I’ll keep with me
Looking back through the years there have been good and bad times that I can see.
When I first saw her there in my home ,
I was red faced if you know what I mean .
Shy was I and couldn’t look in your eye ,
But never forgot what I’d seen .
From Flax Street you moved into my grannies
and from there what a time it was .
We were young and free in a time when life meant
Whatever anything does .
It was risky and I nearly needed some whisky the day I left her .
When ever I think of all that’s happened to us and all , its just not fair .
It all turned cold and I wasn’t that old
when I had to leave her behind .
I needed a lot more than tequila and Sheila
was always on my mind .
I’ve not forgot the spots we went to
Like Tobys hall and The Shamrock .
Throw up a coin heads it Ardoyne ,
if its tails you loose all you’ve got .
When I lost her in 72 things went all wrong and
my mind was shot .
Can’t tell you how I felt ,
the cards were dealt out and I had play the hand .
No denying it was crying time
For a stranger in a foreign land .
Tried to communicate with those who couldn’t relate here In Aussie Pubs .
Where do I begin I couldn’t fit in .
So I found an escape in drugs .
My life cut with a knife .
Hi-jacked by hard narcotics in 72 .
Hard fisted and twisted
Didn’t know what to do,
Returned to you know who .
To my home and Belfast town ,
They took me in,
tied me down and zapped my brain .
I became a person nobody knew .
I was to blame ,
I went insane .
Re-invented not demented .
It was time to return to Mum and Dad ,
I took on a job and shook off the mob
and won the respect I once had .
II got on my feet with a new monster to meet
in the shape of times lost .
On the scrap heap, my job couldn’t keep
Me from paying the ultimate cost .
Too old at 25 ,
I had to survive the late nineteen seventies .
Deep sleep therapy for my troubled memory
put me down on my knees .
Oh God I cried out don’t let me doubt this is something that you cannot fix .
My guts were spilled when my sister was killed
and my mind with anger was mixed .
In 1990 I had to flee and
back home to Belfast I was led
Unconscious on a bed ,
I was near half dead ,
But forgave the wrong instead .
Now at 55 I'm still alive living out days after the divorce .
It’s a heavy load and a hard road
But I know God is my only source .
So believe me when love leaves you
I know that God’s love alone will be there .
His spirit is falling when you’re calling
In trouble so never despair .
The years have me drained but I’ve found again ,
my friend Sheila and she is near .
I’ve written some stuff and hope its said enough ,
Of just what I lived down here .
By Paul McCann
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