Spiritual

Looking for Serenity. I know about the darkness and the pain inside your soul I know the helpless feeling when you fail to meet your goal The cocoon you wrap around you to keep the hurt at bay, The endless battles that you make to live from day to day.

Azariah The dream occurred while I slept in bed with my "at the time boyfriend" Josh, with whom I fell terribly in love with. I believed that he was my soul mate. Later I concluded that he was my soul mate, but only for a time. I still think of the strong connection we had and miss him at times, but have no regrets about our relationship falling apart. If I did, that would mean I do not accept my place in this universe now. I love my life, a hard one it has been, but a beautiful one none the less. I have all I could ever need, including a most beautiful husband, Andrew. I have been graced by the love of God and seem to always have what I need.

"Don't you want to get a place of your own and a job." I asked him. He stopped suddenly and sat down. I joined him on the grass. "If I did. I would miss all this." He said. Pulling at his filthy jacket. The sarcasm cutting me like a knife. His tone softened. As if he had relented. "I don't fit." He said, matter of factly. "This world was built by people like you for people like you. I don't see the world the way you do." He paused to pick a buttercup out of the grass. For a while he gazed down at the small, bright yellow flower. Twirling it in his fingers. The light reflecting from it casting a yellow shadow on the dirty skin of his hands. "You see this buttercup?" He asked.