Lung Biopsy Result

By skinner_jennifer

Fri, 08 May 2026
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Dear diary...it's Friday 8th May 2026. I woke this morning in a better mood than yesterday. Last night I was able to sleep through the night, unlike the night before, where trying to get comfortable in bed, while still continuing to sit up while sleeping had left me with an aching back, neck and bottom.

Yesterday Thursday 7th May 2026 I was dreading my visit to the hospital, because I had this awful feeling things weren't right. We arrived at about 11am and my appointment was for 11.30am. The car park was full, but luckily we managed to get a space and parked up.

I was out of breath just walking from the car to the lift. We went up to the third floor and along a corridor to the Wren department where I informed reception I was waiting to see the Doctor.

All the time I was waiting, which was about 45 minutes, my heart was beating fast and I could feel my tired eyes becoming teary, but I managed to hold the tears back.

Waiting outside the Doctor's door I had to hold my head between my legs because I thought I was going to pass out. My partner asked me if I'd like a cup of water, but all I wanted was to get into the room, see the Doctor and finally know what was going on.

Five minutes after a patient came out, I was asked to enter. My partner came in with me and for some reason as soon as I sat down I burst into tears, there was a nurse in the room with the doctor and she gave me some tissues.

Once I'd calmed down, the doctor quite calmly informed me that the lung biopsy told her it was Advanced Lung Cancer. I was in absolute shock to start with, but knew I'd had a feeling at the back of my mind it was Cancer, from what the scan and x-rays had previously shown.

Today though I've accepted my fate, but find it hard to understand where the Cancer has come from, as I've never smoked, but the doctor informed me that it's not always about smoking, there are many other reasons, it's just unfortunate for me.

Now I've had two more blood tests and have to go back to the hospital on Sunday 11th May 2026 for another chest scan. But thank goodness I don't have to have any more lung biopsys, because I wouldn't want to go through that again.

Once they know what treatment I will need, I'll be going down that road of many more hospital visits and goodness knows what else I'll have to go through...I'm trying not to think about it.

I've a feeling it will be terminal, because the doctor said they are just going to treat the cancer to make me feel more comfortable, when I asked her; “Will I die?”

She only answered with. “It doesn't look good.”

So now I'm just going to make my life as comfortable as I can, by keeping the house clean and making sure I eat the right foods, though walking leaves me out of breath, at least my home will be sparkling clean, which is a bonus. Also knowing what the problem is means I can deal with whatever comes next and prepare myself.

 

 

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Submitted by Starfish Girl on

Dear Jenny

So sorry that your fears were confirmed. I know there is a long road of treatment in front of you but all you can do is make the most of each day. 

Please keep writing, your last poem shows your love and joy in nature.

Keep us updated. Some years ago one of our members documented her journey through cancer in a very moving and uplifting way.

Take care

Lindyx

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Dear Lindy,

thank you for your kind words. It's true that I'm facing a long road ahead, but I'm trying to stay positive and just glad I've not lost my appetite for writing, although my priority at the moment is keeping on top of the cleaning which is taking up a lot of my time, but it's lovely to see nice clean surfaces.

I will certainly keep updating how I'm feeling. I do remember all those that have passed since I've been on here, and I think you are mentioning Jean who wrote about her family history, whicfh I found so inspiring. She really had so much courage along with Bee too. We are so lucky to have such an incredibly caring sight as abc tales don;t you think?

Any way thank you again.

Jenny.X

 

Submitted by insertponceyfre... on

Once again Jenny, I'm so sorry you received such bad news, and we will all be thinking of you, and yes, Bee's wonderful writing is still on our front page to read if you want to. Sending you a big hug xx

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Dear insert,

I'm so overwhelmed and feel all the love from abc tales. It makes such a difference to my mood having so many kind people showing so much care.

I do read Bee's past writing and remember how she kept a positive attitude and sence of humour throughout. I'm okay apart from the coughing and feeling out of breath, which as long as I can sit down between bouts of cleaning, helps me to keep a sparkling house.

I really do appreciate the big hug insert.

Many thanks.

Jenny. XX

 

Submitted by airyfairy on

I'm so sorry, Jenny. Please do keep writing, to keep us up to date with how you're doing, and also to keep sharing your wonderful thoughts and insights into the world around you. It is, as others have said, not an easy road ahead, but you have many friends here who will be thinking of you xx

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Dear airyfairy,

It's very kind of you to stop by and share your thoughts. I'm not feeling too bad apart from the coughing and feeling breathless, but as long as I can sit down between bouts of cleaning I'm okay. It's strange to think that during the early 90s I used to teach up to seven dance fitness classes a week, now I wonder how on earth I managed it.

I'm still hungry for writing, but cleaning the house does come first as the doctor discovered I have a dust allergy when I had a Bronchoscopy and need to be in a clean enviroment, so now I'm addicted to cleaning and it;s really making a difference.

It's having caring people here at abc tales that's making my life so much better and for that I'm really grateful.

Many thanks.

Jenny. XX

 

Submitted by Jane Hyphen on

Hi Jenny, your tearfulness was likely a result of what your gut already knew but couldn't face until your doctor confirmed it in words. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. As others have said, please keep writing about anything you feel like; I always enjoy your posts and your feedback over the years has really spurred me on with my own writing journey. We'll be thinking of you and sending strength and hugs xx

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Hi Jane,

you are absolutely right in what you say. I hate hospitals at the best of times, and wish I could remain healthy as just being around the hospital ages me and brings me down, it's that clinical environment and knowing I'm sick which I detest. Life is so much easiier when I can walk freely in nature and that's why I;m glad I have a large garden, it makes all the difference.

That's such a kind thing to say, that me reading your work has spurred you on to keep writing. I love your stories, they bring so much pleasure and I'm sure you get a lot of joy from being part of a special sight as abc tales.

Thank you for your kind words Jane.

Lots of love.

Jenny. XX

 

Submitted by Rhiannonw on

I'm sorry too, Jenny. Hard news.

We are all of us living terminal lives here, uncertain of how long or how our days will be.

I don't know if you know the famous hymn (popularised for its tune in rugby matches, I think!), 'Guide me O thou Great Redeemer, pilgrim through this barren land', but the last verse says, 'When I tread the verge of Jordan (a picture likening death to the Israelites crossing the Jordan river to the promised land), bid my anxious fears subside …'

I don't know if  you remember Jean who wrote historical fiction, a lot connnexted what she knew of her family tree. She was very friendly with Bee I think, and chronicled her journey with bowel cancer.

i pray you'll have helpful NHS staff and you'll find comfort in the treatments and appointments.

love, Rhiannon

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Bless you Rhiannon,

your words resonate with me and I count my own blessings for being here at abc tales and being able to share my feelings. It's strange but death doesn't frighten me, it's the thought of suffering I can't stand the thought of, especially after watching my dad die of throat cancer, he went through so much, but managed to stay as positive as could be expected.I never thought in a million years that I'd be going through this, but I suppose that's life.

I don't know the hymn you mentioned...afraid I'm not a rugby fan either.

Now Jean I do remember with her historical fiction and family tree. What a wonderful writer she was along with Bee too. We have so much wonderful writing on abc tales, it's a place I find so comforting and so glad I discovered back in 2010.

That's very kind of you to pray that the NHS staff be there for me. Your prayers and words are a great comfort to me Rhiannon.

Thank you so much.

Jenny. XX

 

 

 

Submitted by marandina on

So sorry to hear that, Jenny. That's awful news and you are being incredibly brave about it.  I hope that you get the very best care from those involved. I don't know what else to say other than I hope you continue posting and keep everyone in the loop. I guess medical science is advancing all the time so I can't help but wish you get a more positive prognosis soon.

You have many friends on here. Paul x

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Hi Paul,

it's lovely to hear from you and a comfort. I'm not doing too badly at the moment, even though I wish I could get out and walk without having to rest between bouts.

I really hope you're right about medical science advancing and maybe I can have a life saving prognosis, what a joy that would be.

Knowing there are friends on abc tales, is really showing me the love and is really appreciated at this time.

Thank you so much Paul.

Jenny X

 

Submitted by Turlough on

Oh Jenny, I can understand why there were tears but to be able to write about this as you have done shows great bravery.

I’m sure there will be more hospital visits to come, as you have predicted, so please tell us how the treatment goes and how you are feeling, if you’re in the right frame of mind to do so. I always enjoy your writing, especially as our respective old stomping grounds have overlapped, so it saddens me immensely to learn of your illness. It’s incredible what the doctors can do these days so there’s every chance that they’ll have a bit of magic to make you comfortable and keep you going.

I hope too that we’ll see more of your wonderful poems and tales of nature and your range of past experiences that have become such a big part of ABC Tales life. And if the sparkliness of your clean home becomes too sparkly clean and you’ve nothing left to do, we could always do with someone to go round with a duster here.

Big love to you dear Jenny. x

Turlough

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Hi Turlough,

you know I could never write the way I do here on any other websight. But I feel so much connection on abc tales and the genuine love shown gives me strength to write my feelings down. 

It's incredible to write about places I've lived and worked in, knowing that a writer like yourself knows exactly what I'm talking about. I never get to Bristol anymore, haven't been back for 22 years, it's great to have my memories of younger days when life was so much easier.

I'm afraid that cleaning is an on going thing I have to put up with. I never realized just how quicly dust can settle till I got this allergy, now I vaccumn every day and shake out the bedding every day too, but I don't mind because it's lovely living in a clean house and nice and sparkly wink

Thank you for showing the love, it's much appreciated.

Jenny. XX

 

Submitted by JP Brown on

Sad to hear such news. Keeping you in our wishes. All of the Best.

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Hi Jacques,

It's great to hear from you and your kind wishes are really appreciated.

Thank you so much.

Jenny. X

 

Submitted by GlosKat on

Jenny I was so shocked by your email yesterday that I forgot to tell you about my step-mother's brother in law (bit of a convoluted relationship I know !).  Anyway, I am going to post it here rather than emailing you, in case it helps anyone else.

Geoff was diagnosed with advanced stage lung cancer.  That was 3 years ago and he is doing REALLY WELL.  He goes out and about and even on holiday.  The fantastic treatment he has had (all on the NHS) has shrunk the tumour down so much he actually feels better in himself than he did when he was first diagnosed. He is very comfortable, to use your doctor's word.

Keep us posted, you have many friends here.

Kat x

 

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

What a positive and wonderful comment Kat. I can't believe how much better you've made me feel. To think that Geoff is doing much better now gives me so much hope.

From the bottom of my heart, A BIG THANK YOU! smiley

Jenny. XX